Gregory Goyle

There was one hell of a mood in the Dragon last night. It happens on occasion. Sometimes I know the reason but last night I didn't. Didn't end up having to throw anyone out but there was this sort of wild air in the place the whole night. Bet the girls and the guys upstairs made some good money though I'll bet they had some decent bruises to show for it this morning. Still can't have been anything they didn't want 'cause I didn't get any calls. Hopefully it'll be calmer tonight.

Probation wasn't too bad today. They've got me working at a hospital. It's a Muggle one so I can't use magic but that's okay. They mostly have me down in the maintenance area doing the heavy lifting. I'm good at that. But sometimes they call me up to help shift patients. Don't really like that. Don't know why, just don't like it.

[Hexed private to self]
I can't believe I did it. I actually brewed the antidote Arsene wanted. Took me three tries but I did it. It's definitely right 'cause it's the right colour. Arsene says it only turns that colour when it's been done properly. I was never good at potions. I studied for it 'cause I was scared shitless of Snape but I wasn't any good at it. Arsene reckons it's because I spent too much time trying to sabotage Potter and his mates instead of working. He's probably right but that's what Draco wanted us to do. Didn't know how to say no back then.

Arsene says I have a brain and that one of these days I'm going to believe him when he says that. I don't know. I was never good at school, even the stuff I did before Hogwarts. It's different when Arsene teaches me stuff. He's patient and he doesn't yell at me if I get it wrong or if it takes me ages to understand what he's trying to tell me. Every time I get something right, he smiles and pats me on the back and tells me he'll make an assassin of me yet. I'm not sure if he's joking about that or not. I think I'm a little too big to be a good assassin. I've seen the people who work for him. They're all thin and small and kind of wiry and they sort of disappear into the woodwork really easily. I can't do that.

Better stop admiring the antidote and go and get dressed. My shift starts soon and it'll be busy tonight.
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Anyone else think we didn't exactly have the best teachers at Hogwarts?

Hate these things. Don’t know why I have to write in one except the Ministry says I got to. No one wants to know what’s going on in my life. If they did, they’d have found me and come and seen me by now. And I couldn’t care less what anyone else is doing either. I got my life pretty damn good right now.

Hell, I ain’t even all that upset about the probation. The fine’s eaten up every damn knut I ever saved but that ain’t nobody’s fault but my own. Arsene says you’ve got to take responsibility for your actions. I did it; I got to pay for it. It sucks but there ain’t no way to change it. Besides I’d rather get it over and done with and get back to where I belong.